Envy

Envy

Envy, I often experience it. For different reasons and usually not for long, thankfully. One of the most peculiar sources of envy for me recently has been because of religious doctrine versus ethnic cultural practices. I sometimes wish for a life where the spiritual beliefs that anchor my soul did not conflict with the ethnic culture that is a great source of pride for me. I sometimes wish I lived in a community, or society that made being a devout follower of my faith easy. A land where the laws and norms made practicing my faith easy, or the default thing to do.  

Practicing Christianity is difficult. Practicing Christianity as an African man who is fully aware of how Christianity was used as a tool for evil against my ancestors, and the rest of the world is DIFFICULT. Living in an African community that has certain cultural rites that are expected of me, cultural rites that overlap with the spiritual realm when I was raised as a devout Christian is difficult. One of the most difficult things as a Christian is having the atrocities committed by Europeans since the beginning of time intertwined with the Christian faith because they used it as a vehicle for their crimes against humanity, and arguably almost every other living organism. Now my politics are brought into question because politics are more than just a difference of opinion, especially in a country with a history as tumultuous as our own. It is not as simple as me supporting Kaizer Chiefs and you preferring Orlando Pirates (which would obviously be the wrong choice on your part). Politics are very much economical and socio-economical, which in South Africa are very racial, by design. So, the history of the Christian faith in respect to its role and place in the history of my people is a sore that is as everlasting as the titan Prometheus’s very own. 

Many a time, I have felt that the Arabs must have it sweet. Their ethnic heritage and religious ideology are in symbiosis and their countries being Islamic in nature, populace and legal system must make being a decent Muslim rather easy. Sure, that comes at a cost, often that being human rights, equality for women, and freedom of choice, but what is a little oppression for some peace of mind? (That was a joke please).

Many times, I may feel like freedom of choice is too great a burden because it doesn’t absolve me of the consequences of my actions. That being said, no spiritual peace of mind is worth forfeiting South Africa’s world-renowned constitution and bill of rights. To believe in the Son is the cross I have chosen to carry, and faith will carry me through even the darkest shadows of death. 


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  1. Luther98May 27, 2020 at 1:07 AM

    I'm loving it,keep it up bru

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  2. Sibusiso SpondoMay 27, 2020 at 11:44 AM

    Thank you bro.

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  3. luvuyo mayaMay 31, 2020 at 9:44 AM

    True, two world's that is conflicting. Job was a rich men, he owned slaves and our only confrontion with slavery is the African Dutch Slave trade.

    other tribes were slaves but blacks had the worse forms of slavery, that the affectes and the presence of slavery is still here, and practice.

    But I believe as you believe young king we are the bearers of Christianity that they took and conceptlise (concepts lies)


    in there text, but yet if it was truly the case then we were never gonna sit with such a dark pass called Apartheid, so for a society to live for more then 400 years oppressing another while the churches were present and while they were attending makes me question why I shouldn't question, but nothing the less those who does not follow as I do

    I shouldn't crucify as we were once crucify to believe in the manner that they believe, it doesn't take the essence away from us of not believing but maybe differently. I think there is things in our history that has been destroyed so that we can never find what we seek in our future.

    "Kafire- a non believer who has no spirt". According to the old English dictionary?


    is there a difference between a believer
    and
    one who has no spirt. Or a person who possess a spirt but has no believes? but how can one exists without the other?


    Yet we were labeled like this, I say us because we are carring the Genetics of our parents, how many people had lived before you but has been the cause of your existence, date it back as old as human history, 700 years back there was a person who existed who walk like us eat like us maybe lived differently yet his genetics he passed on, we survivors think of it as such if you have an offspring and all of them have offsprings, and it continues 600 years from now something will still exist that you created in 2020. Coz we are the direct offspring of people who lived hundred thousand of years before us, ( I rather live like there is a God then to die and lived like there no God, only to find out there is God, I support your view young king but it's like you say it's far deeper and complicated in our society and only understand so)

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