Healing hurts
No one ever tells you how much healing hurts. No one tells you that on your journey, you will have to open up old wounds and address new ones. No one tells you about the shame of knowing better, but still being stuck in old routines. The shame and disgust you feel because you feel like you are failing yourself. A perfect example of the difficult road to healing is the road to recovery from addiction. It’s not a simple straightforward process where you just quit whatever or whoever your substance of choice was. Recovery isn’t a linear process. Relapsing is part of the process and may happen multiple times. When it does happen, it often doesn’t feel as euphoric as it did back then. The substance is now tainted, laced with shame and disgust. Yet you will still use it. That’s when it hurts the most, when you are most likely to give up. It isn’t the substance that breaks your spirit; it’s the shame and self-loathing that creeps up on you and pulls you into darkness. That’s the unseen d...